They shall forget their shame and all the treachery they have practiced against me, when
they dwell securely in their land with none to make them afraid, when I have
brought them back from the peoples and gathered them from their enemies lands,
and through them have vindicated my holiness in the sight of many nations.

Ezekiel 39: 26, 27

Here is a very true admission, this comes from deep inside my heart; often the greatest
obstacle to living confidently and joyously that I face is residing inside of
me. It is a bit like that implanted creature from the Alien films in that it is
horrible, unseen, paralyzes with fear of potential destruction, and when it
hatches out, it does incredible damage to its host. This is rather like the way
that doubt, insecurity, and self-loathing operate; for, they confuse and
disable their host. I don’t wish this sort of painful experience on anyone;
however, I would bet that these feelings are very familiar to many.

These debilitating feelings of self-doubt are a part of a trap that evil sets for its
enemies, and anyone who seeks to serve God and to do what is right is an enemy
to Satan. That is why this sort of fear seems to follow along in the wake of
many God inspired ideas to serve others in the name of the Lord. At a point
between the moment where the opportunity to act is identified and the
moment where actual involvement starts, commitment is crushed by images of
prior failure, by a sense of inadequacy, and by a cloud of worthlessness.

All of these images of self are false; they are the work of a deceiver, and they need
to be dealt with. When we start to focus on our lack of adequacy or worth, we
are moving back into the old spiritual shack where we lived before God adopted
us and moved us into His palace; we are allowing ourselves to be relocated from
a land of security and prosperity back to the war ravaged desert of our birth.
God wants us to enjoy the security of the gift of His presence and the splendor
of our new home with Him.

When we refuse to allow evil the opportunity to pull our hearts back into the past,
Christ wins a victory in us and for us. When these negative thoughts and the
insecurity that accompanies them start to appear in your head, take them to the
Lord and take them to a friend who also knows Him; then share openly and deeply
the feelings and the thoughts that you are having. For evil wants us to keep
its negativity hidden inside. It doesn’t survive the light of exposure to
truth. Also, stay focused on the wonder and the security of the new home that
God has given to you, seek to share the joy of living there with everyone
that you meet, and stay focused on the moment by moment direction and purpose
that the Spirit of Christ speaks to your heart.