I acknowledged my sin to You, and I did not cover my iniquity; I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord.” and You forgave the iniquity of my sin.

Psalm 32: 5

 

There are two basic life facts that come to my mind here; first, it is foolish in the extreme to try to hide anything from God; second, it is harmful and needlessly painful for me to even try. God is absolutely everywhere and possesses total knowledge; He proves this to me all of the time, for the Lord has answers before I know the questions, and He guides, guards, and encourages me on a daily, even an hourly basis. God’s process of care and direction apply particularly to the numerous times and situations when I am living and functioning outside of His will and direction; you know, those too numerous episodes of being sinful.

 

So, if God knows all about me and everything that I do or think, why does it matter if I tell Him about it all? For me, if I don’t recognize, accept, and call out a behavior or an attitude, in other words, if I don’t own it; then, I am very unlikely to change it. The Lord wants to work with me and His Spirit will work in me to make the needed changes happen, but He wants me to want to become transformed. He will let me carry around a weighty burden of anger, hurt, and regret for as long as I am willing to continue wasting my strength and dissipating my energy on that activity; however, as soon as I tell God about the things that are troubling me and open my heart honestly to Him, the Lord starts to help me carry the burden, and He shows me the path to restoration with Him and with the people that my actions and my thoughts have harmed.

 

 Lord, search me and show me what You see in my heart, give me the strength and the openness that I need to reveal my deepest self to You, and provide me with the direction and the courage that I will require to change my way of living and to start to repair the damage that I have done. I trust You with my heart, and I trust in Your grace and loving mercy